How we wish we could go back to yesterday and right the wrongs we have committed. I made a mistake many years ago and I have suffered every moment since. Now my life has come to a crossroad. A nexus in my timeline has been created and two paths are laid before me, unlike the past I do not have control over which path I will venture down.
For the past two years life has been unbearable. My heart has been torn from my chest and all I have wanted to do was to slip into the abyss and escape the hell I find myself in every waking moment. I just want relief from my pain. An end to my suffering. I want to die. But I made a promise. I do not break my promises but it does not mean I don't have an unyielding desire to finally be free from this accursed existence.
I wanted to believe that my sacrifice was worth it. To know going to my grave that I have given all I could to those I love most. But alas I feel this is not the case and I will die knowing they see past me. They will never know how much I love them and I would pay any price for their happiness.
Please do not forget me if I should pass. Remember me so that I may live on in the hearts of those I love so much.
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